2017 was a tough year for me - I want to write about it soon, just not yet.
But 2018 is a new year and a new start.
I don't like when people do the whole "new year, new me" thing but I can totally relate this year. Actually, I take that back. I don't want to be a new me. I want to be back to the old me. Before April of 2017.
Even though last year taught me an awful lot. And I changed as a person. I want to keep hold of everything that I learnt but go back to the person I was. I wasn't stressed, worried or depressed. I was just me. I have made a huge amount of progress in the last couple of months and now only have bad days maybe once a month. And it's not a "time of the month" kinda bad day. It's an actual bad day. Where I cry all day and don't want to leave the house or eat. Although I don't have these days often, I do still have them. And I want to work towards not having them at all.
Anyway, getting away from all of that. I want to make positive changes this year to my life. Usually, I set myself the goal of "getting fit" but then I never do anything about it. Well this year should be a heck of a lot easier seeing as though I am living somewhere where it is sunny almost every day.
I recently bought rollerblades!! I used to rollerblade as a kid around London with my brothers so I know I can (could) do it. It has taken me a couple of tries to get back into the swing of things and I think I'm getting there. I can't quite do steps or curbs yet but I can go straight, do turns and go pretty fast! I want to learn how to do rollerblade dancing - ok maybe I am getting a bit carried away. But rollerblading is something that I enjoy doing. I don't see it as exercise which is amazing. I do it because I enjoy it, not because I think it will make me skinny!
I also hope that living by the beach will help me get fit as I can go for a daily swim in the morning. I have done it a handful of times in the last 2 weeks but would love to make it part of my routine. Maybe when we have somewhere a little more permanent.
So, what else do I want for 2018. I would love to start thinking about children again. It has taken us a little while to start thinking that way again and although we aren't ready yet, I hope that we can start to be ready again in the next 12 months. I don't want to rush things, so whenever is right, is fine.
I would also love to work more on my photography. I have lots of ideas but at the moment with the tourist visa, I can't work. I am dying to get out there and start shooting people. I have so many ideas. I think part of the issue is me and my confidence though. I always feel surprised that someone wants to pay me to take photos of them. Even though I think I am good at what I do and I always love the photographs. I need to believe in myself a little more.
And I guess that rolls into my next point. I want to start meditation and yoga. I know that isn't directly linked to confidence but it helps people as a whole. It is meant to relax the mind, take away stress, clear your thoughts etc. That can only be a good thing when trying to run your own business!
Anything else? I guess the last thing would be travel. I love being here in Miami. I love the diversity and the fact that it doesn't feel like the USA - or at least how I thought the USA would be like. There are so many cultures here. Everyone speaks Spanish and I mean everyone! Which reminds me - I want to learn Spanish! I have spent 6 years learning French, now time for a 3rd language! But back to travel, I would love to visit Cuba, Costa Rica, Belize, Mexico, The Bahamas, St Lucia, Hawaii etc. I would also like to visit places in the USA while I'm here too. For example I want to celebrate my 30th birthday in Las Vegas because why not?! I want to go back to New York. I want to visit Yellowstone National Park, Niagara Falls, Boston, Texas, LA.. everywhere!!
Who knows what 2018 will bring and that is the beauty and mystery of it all. I am so excited to be out of 2017 and to leave it all behind. Let's hope 2018 is incredible! Life is about balance after all!
I hope you all have a wonderful 2018 and it brings you everything you want and more. I hope you spend time with loved ones, travel to new and exciting places, do things that scare you but ultimately have an awesome year and one to remember!
Cheers to 2018!